Patrick and Keiffer and I are sitting in the studio putting the finishing touches on the LAST song on the record.  We were noting that the thing we were doing sounded like in Zelda when you move a tree or stone.  So, I pointed at Keiffer and said, “that’s why Link’s in the band.”  Then Patrick said, “Well, excuse ME, PRINCESS!”  Then we thought it would be an awesome idea to put all the clips of Link saying that famous catch phrase all together in a youtube video.  Then we decided to look on youtube.  That’s when the world imploded and we found this.

 

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Why I’m buzzing my head…

I first colored my hair when I was 12 years old.  I carefully picked-out a box of burgundy-red hair color from the drugstore after school one day when my mom took us in there to grab a few essentials.  I snuck up to the counter with money I’d saved up and bought it when she wasn’t looking.  I got it home and read the instructions carefully.  While my parents were upstairs making dinner and playing with my siblings, I was downstairs in my bathroom, changing my appearance permanently for the first time.  I applied the orange-colored liquid to my shoulder-length caramel light brown hair.  I waited 30 minutes and got back in the shower to rinse it out.  It smelled like cat pee and stung my eyes when the water hit my head releasing more fumes.  I conditioned with the provided tube of moisture, and then hopped out of the shower so fast I fell over the edge of the tub and caught myself on my elbows.  I got up, wiped the steam off the mirror and looked at myself.  I was beautiful!

I’ve been thinking a lot about all the things we do to look beautiful, and I’ve been thinking about being in touch with my body, my spirit, my true self.  As a stylist, my number one priority is not to make people stylish, but to help people find the look that makes them feel the most like themselves.  At 12 years old, I just knew I was a redhead and I wanted to see myself that way.

Lately, I’ve had this nagging feeling. It’s a little thing, but its gotten bigger the more I think about it.  Here it is:  I haven’t seen my natural hair color since I was 12.  That glove-clad little gal working ammonia-based color through her hair in the mirror is my last image of me with a hair color that grows out of my head.

These days I have to color my hair about every three weeks or so to keep my gray spots covered.    Early pigment loss is hereditary in the Wolf family.  I’ve been thinking, how sad would it be to me if one day I’m totally gray and decide to stop coloring my hair and realize I have no idea what my hair color was as an adult.

That thought brings me to the solution:

I’m buzzing my hair off.

Don’t worry.  I haven’t lost my mind.  I’m not having a breakdown, and I will color at least parts of my hair again.  I’m a colorist for goodness’ sake!  I just want to be part of the process of watching my family birthrite fill in AND I want to see what color the rest of my hair is!

Like any human, I do care what people think, and want to be accepted. I know some people won’t like how it looks, but hopefully they’ll at least understand the motivation.

I have known many beautiful people in my life.  They were caring, compassionate, funny, irreverent, joyful, mysterious, magical, and full of life.    They were fat, thin, bald, buxom, wrinkly, fresh-faced, made-up, natural, over-done, under-done, stylish, tasteless, and everything in between.  They are all my inspiration for being beautiful no matter what kind of hair day I’m having.  So, today I say goodbye for now to my fun artificial color and hello to my head-shape and the first look at my natural color in twenty years.

New song called “Sad Verse”

catch a storm…catch a storm and ride it to the ocean

catch a storm…catch a storm and ride it out to sea

 

i don’t have a place for you

there’s nowhere to stay

I don’t have the space for you anyway

 

love is born…love is born and tangled in a motion

love is born…love is born and tangled in the cord

 

i don’t have a place for you

there’s nowhere to stay

i don’t have the space for you anyway

 

gather….what matters…your heart in your throat…swallow it whole

like a sad….sad verse

 

in the depths…in the depths far below commotion

in the depths…far below the raging of the tides

 

instrumental pre-chorus

catch a storm and ride it to the ocean

Fresh off the Shaming…I wrote a song in 5.

Here is a slideshow of some pics from us doing The Shaming of the True.   The music is a demo I made today of a song I wrote on the plane last night coming home from the show.  It was an hour of heavy turbulence and was perfect inspiration for a song.  This song is inspired by the conversations, sounds and sights of rehearsing and performing The Shaming of the True.

 

Here are the lyrics:

Lightning in the sky

Lightning in the sky

Will it bring me down next to you

When I fly

Bring me down like you do

When I try

You don’t know my name

You don’t know my name

Still you call to me call to me

Just the same

You call to me call to me

Anyway

Sometimes life is like that.  Sometimes life is like that.

You don’t understand.

You don’t understand.

But you sing to me songs in three

like a fan

Cool me off with your breeze

like a fan.

Why should I explain

Why should I explain

How it feels to dive in a plane

in the rain

Cuz now we’re here and we’re the same

Anyway

Sometimes life is just that.  Sometimes life defies fact.

Flying home, I looked out my window to see the lightning rip a hole into the sky

As we fell down, my only thought was I didn’t hold you long enough when last we said goodbye

Oh flying, on my way home, are these the kind of thoughts that people have before they die?

All I wonder as I fall down is did I hold you long enough when we said goodbye.